Wednesday, July 2, 2025

What kind of a public health person am I?

 As I become a little more familiar with the public health ecosystem of India, I am slowly beginning to feel less like a visitor to this field and more aware of the players and the dynamics... it's like getting to know your husband's family after your marriage. Everyone appears amazing and will go to great extents to tell you how close they are to your husband when you first get married, but as you become more and more integrated within your partner's family, you understand history, nuances, dynamics that were glossed over before.

The main organization I have worked with and understood a little bit about public health is an old one based in B'lore with whom I became close during Covid.  Recent experiences with scholarly writing and with consulting for some other public health organisations makes me realise that not all PH organisations are painted from the same brush, even if nearly all have very similar-sounding mission/vision/goal statements. 

Some follow the consultant-model. I think this is the type of job what most new graduates from fancy PH schools assume they want. This model has some degree of field work, but does not involve much actual ground-level implementation. The meetings will be with heads of other bodies, may include a day or two observing the implementers and the work will involve a lot of writing, calling, meetings, reporting, coordinating and organising. For young PH professionals, their identity is not with the work or with building their own brand as much as it is with the organization they have joined. This is different from the PhD style training I am more familiar with. In the PhD route, at least in the US, students are drilled that they are working for themselves, by themselves and towards building a personal cachet. This, of course, has its own drawbacks mainly that most PhD graduates are not organization builders. They plug into existing organisations, such as universities, and are focussed on personal advancement. 

Some PH graduates follow the ground-level management group. These ones tend to be managers of the implementers- they end up being program leads or program managers. They work closely with the implementers but ultimately their day to day lives are similar to the first group's but with a slightly different weightage to the activities. I think that most of their lives are spent chiefly coordinating and organising and then reporting, writing etc. They also sometimes show up in public sector PH projects for leading teams of young researchers for ground-level data collection, household surveys, and the like.

People from both categories tend to move from project-to-project or site-to-site as projects end. So it can be a life with quite a lot of unpredictability or changing jobs or movement.

Very few PH graduates actually end up as ground-level implementers. From what I have seen thus far, implementers tend to be professionals from healthcare, law, social welfare etc. They may have systems on the ground and they bring on PH graduates to help manage things better, conduct certain types of research, assess quality, monitor/evaluate progress etc. I think for the implementers, public health is of course one of their objectives, but it may not be necessarily the most key one. Their core objectives may be far more narrowly focussed, such as providing some kind of service to some kind of community. This also means that they stay put in that community for a long time. 

The people who choose these different categories also tend to be of different socio-economic strata. 

This categorisation helped me understand where I fit in in the PH field: I identify myself first and foremost as an implementer. And maybe a little bit as an observer and scholar. And that's why even though a lot of the work I do these days is actively public health related, I do not intuitively understand the new PH graduate life or their challenges or mandates or priorities. With more thought, curiosity and discussion, the above categories can be honed and polished and I can be better prepared to understand and anticipate the flow and nature of various interactions in this field.

Time loops, age and love

 What might have my parents been doing at my age?

My mom, I think, had her bone TB diagnosis when she was 43... so she must have been worried about dying. This was in Pune. 

My dad at 43 must have been quite excited about his work in Chennai..I don't think we had moved to Pune yet. In Chennai, he had been the Chief Manager or a Branch Manager, I forget which one. He was ambitious and had still a strong sense of his physical appearance- I recall he would exercise every morning and that I would join him for curl ups and jumping around the house. 

I thought about this today because I realised many of my clearest memories of my mom were from when she was younger than I am now. So there is a juxtaposition of feelings- my old ones when she was the all-knowing, wise, kind person who could always make me feel better and my newer ones when I look back and feel warmth towards a younger mother likely juggling many different things.

All these thoughts emerged from the recent stay of my mother's younger sister from the US and her daughter, my cousin, and her family of husband and 3 year old daughter. And I experienced the same feeling of warmth and confidence that things would be ok when my aunt was around that I did with my mom and dad, while also watching her take care of her daughter and granddaughter. They had brought a lot of old pics with them; we spoke about earlier trips and visits; we spoke of me and my cousin when we were younger (same age as my kids now, actually!) and of my mom and aunt as children and teens. 

So I am in this time loop and wondering at it. Will my kids and their cousins have warm memories of me and my cousins now? Will my kids remember me as someone kind and loving or someone harried and irritable? Will my nieces reach out to me for support and help as I reach out to so many of my aunts and uncles for various types of advice, guidance and comfort, or receive the same even when I don't realise I need these?

I realise that all these are possible only when intention, planning, time and effort go into building these relationships and connections. It is easier for me living in Bangalore to do this with my extended family here. But I do wonder how to reach out to those who are not in Bangalore. 

I am so grateful to my cousin and aunt for having coming all the way here and deciding to stay with me, when no doubt there might have been more comfortable abodes they could have chosen from. These are the connections that both my kids and hopefully hers will recall with trust and love when they are my age.